My Dear Sweet Brother
Music: Angel
Artist: Sarah McLachlan
Shared by: Francine for her Brother
“I never did get to give him what I wanted, which was to try and save him.”
I was the youngest child, a girl, of four children.
The oldest was my brother. He was 18 years older than me. When I was in my 40s and he was in his 60s, he developed a type of leukemia that required a stem cell transplant.
I felt so lucky that I was the only one that was a match and I was a perfect match. We knew it was a longshot. We decided to go ahead with that and every day I would come home from work, light a fire in my fireplace and fall asleep in a big chair and wake up when it was dark. It was in the fall and I would fall asleep to the song “Angel” and I would fall asleep while I was crying because I was already grieving him.
Two months later, we started the procedure and on the very last day of me donating my stem cells, he had a stroke and died a few days later.
I never did get to give him what I wanted, which was to try and save him, he was a physician and he always said ”all I ever wanted to be was a physician and help people” and he did that.
I wish I could’ve done that for him.